Why do you scrap and create? Is it for you? The possibility to be in print? To make a DT? To win a challenge? Are you like me when you create? I have found that I have gotten away from creating the pages I used to create for the joy of leaving a legacy for ME AND MY FAMILY. Why, all to win a little RAK. I hope in the lesson learned this week that I remember it is not about winning a RAK or creating with the latest products. It is not about being published because I remembered this week that I started scrapbooking because I couldn't wait to document those special moments of my brand new baby and the joy I felt and wanted to share with everyone in my family.
Will I enter more contests and challenges? Sure but not for the purposes of what I have been doing and not to change what I love in order for this type of end result. Why do I mention this? Because I spend hours and days creating what I think will win a little something only to be disappointed. In the end I do love the pages but have pages I would not normally create and often wonder where will these go and how will I fit them in our books. Is this bad? Not really but I want to create pages from from the heart and in the end tell our story the way I see it and not for challenges any longer.
The biggest problem is that I am competitive and miss the ways I used to play sports and games and find this hobby as a way to replace thpse days. It is a little deeper then this for me but in a nutshell this sums up how I was feeling this week and months before this. Why is it we seek the approval of others in so many things we do? Not sure it would really matter to have all the answers but for me it was an eye opener and a reminder to create memories that will last a lifetime not pages that might impress others for a moment only to be forgotten in days and months down the road.
Anyway I am just blabbing but wanted to admit that there are lessons to learn everyday and that although I love this hobby I am not always thrilled with the way things end up because of my expectations. I will get back to creating what I love with what I have and if I happen to win a little something along the way then great and if not I have more pages for my albums. In the long run I think I will be happier with the pages I create with my style telling the story my way. What could be better than that when it comes to scrapping?
Have a wonderful weekend and enjoy your Saturday, I could use some prayers this week regarding my career, our home and current financial situation and an upconing court date for my bankruptcy which has been dismissed for the uptenth time. It is important this to goes well so that I can keep the house/car until I can sell it and obtain my new position. I am praying that God will open those doors and direct me in the direction He desires regarding my career and that God will assist one more time in the bankruptcy case which has been a mess from teh beginning. I wouldn't wish this stuff on anyone and if you have gone throught it you know what I mean. I really need Gods help this week. Thanks in advance friends and if you have any prayer requests please let me know. That is one gift I am more than happy to give back anyday and anytime!!