Wednesday, December 22, 2010

Finding Joy....

A call from my sweet angel tonight saying she missed me...I miss her and love her so much but am excited about her getting to spend xmas with her father's family and then a quick visit with her daddy on xmas night.  Knowing how happy she is brings me lots of joy n a big way!  (After 10 years of her wanting to know her dad and his family, this has come true and I love her family as if they have been around the last 10 years.)  Even her step mom who seems to struggle with it..probably more to me than Demi but praying in time that we will all be one big happy/ier family since this is all about the children, my child.....

My family who mean everything to me...

Friends who care and that continue to help us out even when it is hard to accept...hoping I can pay them all back someday, someway....

In our home that I love and cherish and the wonderful memories we have created here for 10 years...

My gas fireplace on a cold night...

Flannel sheets.....

Dr Pepper from McDonalds....

Cell phones to stay connected.....

Computers....

Answered Prayers....

My new job.....

Teaching and working with children all day.....

Being a mom...the greatest JOY in the world...best thing that has happened to me...

Scrapbooking community....so many wonderful women in this industry....

Slippers.....

Mints.....

Laundry done......

Kindness and Compassion......

Random Acts of Kindness....

Children's laughter....

Forgiveness...

Second Chances.....

Christmas....

Eternal Life.....

Faith....

Today and the gift of life, although emotional these days I am still happy to find JOY in all our blessings and hope that everyone knows how much they mean to me and how much I appreciate them. 

Dear Demi,

I love you more than life and hope you will remember that anything is possible if you BELIEVE.  Find your place in life and remember to always treat others as you would be treated...find passion in all you do.  Be the change you want to see in the world.  Remember to continue to find ways to be kind and compassionate.  Your faith will carry you through life so it is important to surround yourself with like minded friends and family.  Remember to always do your best and that your education is important.  You know that I am so proud of what you have accomplished so far both as a student and a young lady.  Your laughter and smile is infectious.  You have always had a way of making others feel loved and that God loved them from an early age.  You attract goodness.  Treasure you family and friends and know that you are loved by God, me and all those in our life.  Life is short and I pray you will find lasting JOY in those who surround you.  Material things come and go but family and friends are here till the end and are what is really important.  Live for today and plan for tomorrow.  Be wise with your money and give back to those in need...remember it is all Gods.  I pray you will find true love, a christian who will love you for you and that will treat as you should be treated...with respect and honor till death do you both..wait to give away your heart and soul to that one person whom you will spend your life with sweetheart.   I love you so much and at the end of each day am so thankful that God chose me to be your mom.  To know this kind of love is to know JOY.  I hope you will someday have a family...so that you too will know the kind of love a parent has for a child.  Everyday I thank God for the heart he has given you you, your mind with your kind and loving thoughts and your tongue that speaks of truth and love.  It scares me to think that I will someday be gone and that you will carry on. I pray that I am giving you the love and tools you need to have to lead a JOYful and productive life in society.  Thanks for bringing me so much love and joy in the short 1o years you have been here, I am looking forward to the next 10 years and pray I will be the mother that God intended me to be.  That I will live the life I preach each and every day.  That I am a role model you can look up to everyday and that when I step out of line, can own and do better because I know better.  We make a wonderful and awesome team...TEAM WILLIS.  Together we are better and as we have often talked about, I hope you can and will  forgive me when my mistakes.  I will continue to be the best christian, mom, aunt, daughter, friend, neighbor, teacher that I can be and to find JOY in the blessings from above.  Love, Mommy  xoxoxo 

So where do you find your joy this holiday season?  I find JOY in all the above and want those in my life to know that I love them dearly.  I have found that expressing it verbally is what is best for me.  I say it often and it comes from the heart.  Love this life with all the ups and downs lately and know that if tomorrow comes it is a gift and will enjoy what God has planned for us.  Until then...love and hugs from Texas!!

xoxoxox
BiT

1 comment:

Julie Tucker-Wolek said...

Such a beautiful letter to Demi!! Merry Christmas! :):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):)